Coincidence or a Sign?

Today, was just like any other day.

I woke up watched some tv with hubby then began getting ready for work. I opened my closet door and sat on the edge of my bed, trying to figure out what I was going to wear. I glanced over next to the closet a the table we have in the room for Shealyn and all her little trinkets. I glance down at the floor and see that the bottom door of the table is open. I knew that I hadn't done it and it was closed when I woke up. I called hubby into the room and asked him if he opened it to look for a book and forgot to close it. He said he didn't.

Huh.

So, I immediately sat on the floor in front on the opening and looked at what I had; books on sex and love, Silvia Brown book, A couple of Stephen King books, some James Patterson, And old journal from 2005, a letter I had written to my grandfather, a notebook that had some fertility symbols and fertility boosting herbs, and a book. I have no idea where the book came from. Maybe a friend gave it to me after Shealyn past, maybe it came in a box of stuff someone may have given to me. I don't know. What I do know is the book it titled, If God Is So Good, Why Do I Hurt So Bad? by David Biebel. This is the only thing that made sense since I have been reading the bible. (check out my journey through the first 3 books here. And I will be posting about the next 3 in a couple of days.) I handed Hubby the book and he flips through it and stops at a page, whose corner was bent, bookmarking the page. I read it and this is what I found.

"The horizons of life do not demonstrate God's love. Instead we see troubling things. Pain. Frustration. Competition. Alienation. Disintegration. Decay. Death. Yes, even the death of a child, perhaps your own child." -David Biebel

Chills.

Everyday, when I read the bible, before I start,  I say a little prayer for understanding the words that I am reading, I prayer for guidance and enlightenment. When I am done, I say thank you. Don't really know what I am searching for when I am reading it.

I read the little expert about the author and he lost id first born child as well.

Sign? Coincidence? Call it what you will. All I know is I am believing more and more that God working in mysterious ways and I feel what I am  doing at the moment in time is the right path for me. Can't wait to read this book and see what wisdom it has for me.