I'm such a cornball with title selections. Yes, it's a play on the phrase from the MTV show Jersey Shore. GTL- Gym, Tan, Laundry.
About 2 weeks about I signed up to a gym membership. I did it on a whim. I had been wanting to get fit and get more healthy. My friend has had a incredible weight-loss journey and she inspired me to start getting healthy. seeing her progress has been amazing and I wanted that for myself. You can read about her story here. She started with a juice fast and has gone from there.
Anyway, back to me. So last Monday was my first day at the gym and I met with a trainer. We went over all of my physical issues. And then it was the dreaded weigh-in. Side Note: Can I just tell you how much I hate the scale. So I stepped on the scale. And to my amazement I had actually lost 4 pounds for the last time I weighed myself. It seems like every time I weigh myself I stay in the same range. IDK why but I have. I guess its good that I haven't gained much weight and have been able to maintain what I was weighing. So for the purpose of this post and in tracking my weight loss. I will post my weight in the caption of the pic below.
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| First day of going to the gym and working out. 240.5 pounds |
My goodness. As you can see I carry most of my weight in my belly. Thanks to PCOS. I look like I am pregnant and have always looked like that. Before I was pregnant I hated my stomach...after we lost Shealyn, I REALLY despised my stomach. It was a constant reminder of what wants here. It was a constant reminder of my body failing us. I'm not sure why it took so long but it took my 5 years of hating the way I looked to finally do something about it. Yeah people say, "oh you're beautiful" or "oh you're so pretty". And hearing it from my husband didn't really mean much. I mean, he's supposed to say I'm pretty, or I'm sexy. We are married. And even though I fix my hair nice, and put makeup on. I have never felt pretty, or beautiful and especially not sexy. But all of that is about to change.
Since the day I started going to the gym, which by the way, I am going almost every other day. I have also joined a weight loss group at the gym. It is a weight loss boot camp type of challenge group, called One Size Smaller (OSS). I had gained some weight. I think because I am eating more, 4-6 small meals as opposed to 2 large meals and a tons of unhealthy snacks. But today I stepped on the scale (my OSS trainer wanted us to weight ourselves daily and if there is a gain we can address it faster) I was surprised at what I saw. I've lost weight and am now under 240. 238.5 to be exact. Treadmill, weight resistance, and some yoga and other group exercises. I can not wait to get to were I want to be.
Not this particular bikini, but I want to be able to wear one and not feel ridiculous. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder". How can that statement be true when society tells us differently? I am not doing this for anyone but myself. I want to feel beautiful. I want to have someone say the words and I glance in my reflection and say, "you are damn right I am." With my current weight and size I just do see or feel it. And for me it affects other aspects of my life. I don't want to be toothpick skinny. I want to be a healthy weight and size for my age and height. I am pushing for under 200. 160 would be ideal for me. But I will be happy with under 200 to start with.
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My group training with my OSS group was insane. I almost wanted to quit it but I didn't. And I won't. My gym is affordable and convenient. It is right next to where hubby works so when I take him to work I have no excuse to not stop in and get a workout in. I am kind of turning into a work out monster. I was outside at work the other day taking a break and found myself doing a couple of squats lol.
I will try to post weekly updates, probably on Friday or Saturday. I hope you will follow my journey.
Love and Peace to you all.
Betty
xoxo
