HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I hope everyone's Christmas and New year were magical. For my Christmas I worked. Story of my life. I actually took off for New Years. WOW! Who would have thought? We, Billy and I, spent New Years with Shealyn's God-mom. I was having a good time until we went around the table and with "Good and Bad of 2012". How to I not sound angry or bitter when I answer this? I came up with some stupid stuff. Bad-- saying good-bye to my grandfather's sister. RIP Aunt Helen. And good- spending my bday in Seaside with Danielle, Sarah and my sister. Oh and getting my tattoo and deciding to writer a book. If only I'll actually finish what I start. What i really wanted to say was the last 6 months of 2012 was bad and that nothing really good happened. Yeah I have a Job and house and I'm grateful for all of that But my biggest issue is I want to BE HAPPY AGAIN. And when I picture me being happy again and a picture that was taken of me on my wedding, very candid, smiling ear to ear. Not a care in the world. I'd given anything to be back at that moment. Before everything when to shit. Will I ever be happy like that again? I found an old journal the other day. I really think TTC destroyed us.
Well onto my New Year's Resolutions. IDK why I even do these. I NEVER stick to them.
- Finish at least 1 of my 2 book/short story ideas.
- (I saw this on face-book) Write a good thing that hap pend to me a day and put it in a jar. At the end of the year I will go back and read. This will be a reminder to look for all the good things in life.
- (on my list every year) To loose weight. I would like to be a size 9 but realistically I would settle for a size 10-12.
- Work out more or do yoga every day.
That's all I could think of for right now. My Ultimate goal is to find me. The true me. The happy me.
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