So Tired

I am so tired. I have no motivation for anything. I'm tired of work, I'm tired of things being the way they are. I'm tired of not "being a women". I feel like I hit menopause a long time ago. I'm tired of being tired, I'm tired of doing the same crap over and over again. I'm tired of being broke all the time. I'm tired of driving a death trap of a car. I'm tired of my family on contacting me when they need something. When was the last time they called me? Your guess is as good as mine. I'm tired of being alone. Yeah, I have my husband but I'm alone. I'm tired of being quiet. I'm tired, tired, tired.

On another note: My rosary/jewelry seems to going good. I'm have few orders, mostly for bracelets.

Sad thing: The only time I'm happy is when I put my ipod on loud and create something.

Things HAVE got to get better, they just have too.

50 Shades

I am completely obsessed with the series. I read the whole trilogy in one week. Some people might not like it. But I can put all the sex in it aside (although it's pretty hot) and focus on the story. The love story in it is really good. I don't normally get panic attacks from reading a book. I mean serious who does that? This girl apparently. In the second book, 50 Shades Darker, I think I had 5 panic attacks. Well, more like anxiety attacks but still. Yes, so I'm obsessed with a book, and in love with fictional people. I need a life. SMH.